Changed my layout cos I was feeling emo and cos I was growing bored of the old one. LOLS. Looks like the last one didn't last long than I'd hoped.
Anyway, my bad feelings were confirmed yesterday.
1st, I was too stressed out cos of exams and nearly cried yesterday cos of it.
2nd, mood swings. PMS. =.=
3rd, kena marah by Dad and Sis for being a complete idiot.
4th, stomach accheee.
=.=
heh. blekk.
am tired.
Mom's Kindergarten Concert is TOMORROW!!! And then Sunday busy. =.= And tonight there's cell. Awww, man. Wish I could go to the Thanksgiving Dinner tomorrow instead. Ohya!
HAPPY (EARLY) BIRTHDAY, ELIZZA BEVERLY WOO!! (picture time)
Your birthday is tomorrow, but I don't think I can be online tomorrow so now I'm wishing you (: You are finally 15 tomorrow! (: GOD BLESS YOU!!
Voice sore already from all the singing yesterday at school - singing "Love Story" and such with Thai Chin and my own songs like the Christmas carols (WOOHOO~!! CHRISTMAS IS COMING, PEEPS~!!)
Guys, I want you guys to read what I'm about to say properly and tell me what you think, please.
Lately, I dunno why but I've been wanting something knowing it's impossible. It's not fair. Life really is unfair. A phase of suffering. Feeling as if there's no hope. All you wanna do in life is to succeed, but somehow impossible as this huge wall keeps blocking you. Everytime you knock it down, it rebuilds again. All you want is happiness, but somehow, darkness is all you receive.
The end of 2009 is coming soon. As I reflect the memories of this year, I see glimspe of all the joy, laughter, pain, bad times and good times. All my mistakes. It's weird how people seem to remember the bad times more than the good times. We should all remember the good times and not bad. But. =.=
So when the year 2010 comes, I wanna be a different person than who I am. A better person. Not this selfish, uncreative, lazy, stupid me. But a selfless, creative, hardworking, smart me. It's time to change my ways and move on. Time to forget all the times I broke down all cos of the littlest problem. The times when I get frustrated. Times when I was not myself. Times when I was being a complete idiot. Times when I had a nervous breakdown and cried for no apparant reasons. Times when I punished myself for being a jerk.
I need a change of lifestyle. I don't wanna be this person anymore. I keep telling myself to change but I always fail. Well. Not this time. This time, I won't fail. I'll do better. I'll become a better person. I'll change my ways. If I'm not on the right track, I'll get back. If I fall, I'll force myself to stand up.
I won't be the same person I was before. What past is the past. Our eyes are put in front to look into the future. They are there for a reason. And they were not put at the back to look back to the past. And I remember a quote Khay Tong once told me "Tip your head over to the bright side". He meant that if ever there was a time when everything seems wrong, think positively. And that's what I'll do.
*sorry you guys. i know I sound a little bit emo. Don't know what's gotten into me lately. But .. haih...*
